phat-fingers

aku sedih

2010-10-16T12:44:00.002+08:00

Aku concept peranagai macam budak gemok now a days.Asik makan aje...Aku stress.If I were to put back on the weight aku deprassi giler nyer......Aku nak lariiii....

I can't think straight

2010-10-14T19:20:00.002+08:00

I never know what I want in life.What I want to decide.I've not been nice lately.Not being thoughtful enough.Not appreciating and not been good.I never want to ask myself and foresee in life.I'm the river flowing water.It's mundane and I'll fall back to where I begins.

It's been confusing that I don't even know what I'm doing.

Get drunk...

party...

hangover...

move on in life...

and again got drunk...

party harder...

dreadful hangover...

then move on in life...

Most people thinks I'm a fanatic party clubber.

which the fact that I'm still enjoying where everyone else has something in achieving.

And I'm tired FULLSTOP

okay I partied yesterday..Haha Zirca it is.Saw my baby.It's awesome.We ladies party hard,got drunk harden and now I'm like wanting to kill myself of the hangover.ARGH!

Great night babies!!!I hope my lady Ain had herself fun despite that she has to work today.Haha..

I want to do something stupid.I'm sorry mummy.

blinded

2010-10-09T21:18:00.002+08:00

No matter how deep I see then..I didn't get the to see the clear big picture.

I was simply blinded by................But I glad I saw it in the end.......Let's toss for the jerkoffs!!whooop!

I didn't do it

2010-10-06T12:04:00.002+08:00

I did my morning jog with my baby sis!!!Thank you......I think she really needs to get her butt up too.It's so not the same to jog in different part of the day Which I think that morning jogs are much fresher and fun...It's like the feeling of joining a fund raising for the poor event jogging with the elderly.But I enjoyed because they are so so so cute gearing up keeping healthy in their golden years.Me and baby sis sure had our face lighted up having them panting....

I dreamt of you.I didn't wish to.But it came through.I don't have to say anything now because that's the things are right now.I do want now is back to what is use to be...it never will..

Heart says go but feet says NO

2010-10-05T00:28:00.003+08:00

We were so geared up for our full day of cardio which of cause I'm way excited because I'm back on my feet bebeh after a hell long of a time I didn't done so.It with my cute couz of cause.

Guess what!!!We met 8.30(AM)...Can you believe that..Hah!The plan was to gym up then we'll swim and laze ourselves in the flowing river,jacuzzi and stuff at JE complex...Upon reaching and to our disappointment it's close on this damn bloody Monday!BUT it's okay we make ourselves to the nearest complex near Joo Koon Station...

We sweat of on the treadmill.It's was a good feeling...And the rest of the afternoon we hangout at the flow baby...Which I've not been in the chlorine for quite sometime.

And now I'm darken,blackened....I want tan...What the hell....over sunned.

We were like dead fish sleeping the whole evening at home.Well,I wanna run tomorrow!!!I'm so up for it!.

* I wish I could say again and mean what I use to say...BUT HELL WITH YOU.

= (

2010-10-03T19:40:00.003+08:00

It's was miserable....but I'm okay anyways.

I was having major breakdown that I think I look silly to think again by now.

Cause it's not worth wasting more time...

Hey..life moves..

I'm glad that were the day because there was a clear line drawn...

The shittiest feeling of all is that I went too far and I forgot all,which they were there all this while appreciating.

Flip the page,next chapter please..

party like a rockstar

2010-09-30T18:17:00.005+08:00

Today is dreadful after an impromptu drunken moments yesterday.I didn't know that Clarke Quay is so happening on Wednesday night because ladies you should know that it's our night..Thanks to a very very good friend of mine to agreed on last night.Lurp you....

We had a visit to the toilet ONLY after we had our hand stamped at Arena.Despite the music there like 'wow' we had to make way for ourselves to Zirca/Rebel which in fact thumbs up!!Importantly,I enjoy!!

My friends said that I'm always crazy to do an impromptu plans especially when comes to partying.Because you people,if we were to plan way ahead,there no excitement.To agreeing on the these kind of last minute plan please don't ever think about the following day because it's fuckenly dread.

I think I should do an impromptu plans on holidays as well...That's thrilling!!

you just killed me

2010-09-29T04:14:00.003+08:00

A good friend tell me this,no matter how many boyfriends/girlfriend changes your true friends still stay.Which it's true.

And no matter what ever confessions made be it you've killed a monkey or a bitch they make you a pathway for you to slip through it or to walk through out the way..

They are there...So fucken appreciate it.

Sometime or should I say most of the times I don't understand what do I want..All I want right now is for you to fucken bust out from my life so that I could understand and know what I want.Cause it make me crazy as it get to fucken nowhere!Or I should say that

I'M DUMBFOUNDED STUPID!

Slap me hard and say it straight to my face.So I wake up.

Help...

2010-09-27T19:55:00.002+08:00

After had a good talk with a friend...I know what I wanted and I already decided.For now I want to breathe new air all over again..I said to her that I kept coming back to the old roots that I'm comfortable with that it's hard to let go of and we did had a good laugh about it which it's true.I just want to be in a new environment and start all over again.Well,I don't think it be easy at first as everything is start from zero..Gradually hopefully it will work out..

It's deactivated,

But I'm still thankful with the people around me because they make me what I am today.

I'll miss you..

Just the way you are

2010-09-27T09:28:00.002+08:00

When I see your face

There's not a thing that I would change

Cause you're amazing

Just the way you are

And when you smile,

The whole world stops and stares for awhile

Cause girl you're amazing

Just the way you are

Way to go BRUNO !!!

Relationships in whatever sorts-It's take a big snap to become an official strangers.A sad case that use to be cared and loved.

2010-09-27T01:38:00.004+08:00

I just splurged on this product of the dead sea salt as to exfoliate,deep cleansing,moisturise my dry winter skin.Which I'm glowing in it baby!I really hope it works on getting rid of the unnecessary marks around.Okay now I'm broke!

Sometimes it's funny that you got into a conversation and then you got embrace by his/her eyes or looks and got lost into it and were thinking If ever you wish you could tell that how badly you miss that person and you would want to get lost in the conversation forever and too coward to do so.

Because there always reasons that should remain silent.Maybe for that matter the simple four letter word M.I.S.S. also hard to text you.

And also that you got all excite having to spent time be it a full cycle of the clockwise motion or even an incomplete one which you are happy enough to see him/her.

please.....

because it's tearing me

stupid

2010-09-24T01:36:00.005+08:00

I know that I may sound very stupid,which I really don't want any visits here or even anyone to be reading this blardy sentence or paragraph of mine.Because I couldn't note down my chapter of life on paper as in the end I'll just crush and dump it into my brown bin nearby.

Like I said it Worldwide Wed.Or should I privatise?

It's agonising missing someone.I'm just crazy which I was labelled to those who knew.And to my cuz..whatever I've told you it was a lie..because I gave up to my egoistic swine which the truth is that I really care...I certainly unknowingly till when it last as deeply we both know....and it seems too complicating.I don't know why the hell I'm going through this as I never asked for it and whenever I wanted to be strong it just got killed and I was brought back to the land of marshmallow and nutella leaving me melting in agony skying high.

Tell me the truth damn it!Don't leave me bouncing aimlessly confused.Give me the fucken truth,hit me hard on the floor so that I can move on smoothly with life.For the fact that I miss you...

It can never be love coz I understand what love really is..

2010-09-22T13:49:00.005+08:00

Make it magical.Cause I've been waiting and so are you...All that I could admit is that we are c.o.w.a.r.d.s.

run away

2010-09-17T21:40:00.002+08:00

Forever young.I want to be forever young.......

Me going nuts eating nonsensical things..which I'm going nuttiest nuts afraid I'm gaining back the weight...It's been so long that I didn't cover my kilometre which I'm going for it tonight and I got a perfect song to go with it.....!

It's my inspiration song to run...

I'm buying treadmill soon for my cardio.....I'm way so excited to have it in my room and start on it......yeah!

I think you are jealous of me that I CAN and you COULDN'T!!!

2010-09-17T09:40:00.004+08:00

I certainly think that you are sooooooooooooooo wayyyyy in secure about yourself that you need to go Gaga about how beautiful and healthy are you..I think you have issues that you are covering up telling people how sexy you are...If really you don't why the hell are you wasting time arguing about people sayings..You are one insecure bitch!!!Whahahaha

Then why am I wasting time writing on this post..sheeshessssssssed!Cause the 2mins of my time writing don't even deserved to be an issues in my life about you!

I Miss...... =)

huh?

2010-09-16T12:42:00.003+08:00

I wish to walk with you forever more,talk,laugh...got me lost in our conversations..

The word is MISS that often used...=)

welcome back

2010-09-15T14:00:00.002+08:00

As my blog already dead..I don't to wish to relive it as I want it to myself..But it's web baby...

Firstly I still need to shed of the extra pound off...which I'm trying hard during this Happy season..

Festive was OKay-okAY...the usual routine like every other years because there too many things happening around which I don't have the fucken mood to celebrate..

I'm actually lost.LOST in my own limbo world...

I'm stuck with this.

There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you.......

ciao..

2010-06-20T16:03:00.001+08:00

I'm pretty screwed up...I don't know what fuck should I do..What fuck should I choose..what fuck should I decide.P L E A S E......

clap2x

2010-05-04T19:00:00.002+08:00

I'm back to a fishmonger...

Not at my mother outlet.But my secondary fish tank.Some serious brain storming and red alerts that made my swim back. Anyways the start off was smooth,just some jammed brake here and there,forgetting orders and stuff.Anyway I heard 'the' shark is swiming in around catching some decent anchovies to handover to the evil fishermen.I hate that.Leave us.We want to earn in peace.KNN.

Fishes welcome me back to the water!I'm lov'in it!!!

=)

2010-04-22T13:16:00.002+08:00

Girl I need that from you again...

I'm useless
I'm worthless
I'm disrespected
I'm ridiculed
I'm underestimated
I'm invisible
I'm ignored
I'm rejected
I'm unheard
I'm unimportant
I'm untrusted
I'm used

So please fuck off...

Blank

2010-04-20T20:18:00.006+08:00

Hello bitches!

When come to shopping I'm fucking definitely in.How I really wish Money is solely for shopping nothing other than that.

Went Ikea with my bitches,shop like there's endless money multiplying.But whatever,makes me happy.

Okay now a day,diet getting bad to worst.I need to stop.Get back to the track,baby.All this cannot go on.arghhh!I'm stress.

Anyway decided to go back to old job since I'm so dried up.Freak!

I'm a fishmonger after all.Why money?You are so so so evil...

O yah!It's been quite a period of time not seeing Hubby baby bro.Good to see him again.He obviously gained meat which is a good sign.Looking healthy.Handsome not yet,long way to go.whahahahaaha,bastard!We should party rockstar one day beb!....Wait for money to come in okay!

freak and go.

2010-04-14T17:25:00.002+08:00

Bye Bye Neyo,Welcome Mr soul and Mr cool.I'm so scandalicious when comes to music.I can be intimate with this one today and I'll change the following day.Bored with one move on with the other.So bloody bastard.

My Pull & bearbear love it too.He dances to it.How cute!Bitchy...!Okay now the video.

I wanna be a Zillionaire so fucking bad.....

gloomy day many smiles

2010-04-13T21:17:00.004+08:00

Today is indeed a rainy day But but....me sissiy and mum had smiles,smiles,smiles.Yes!Our brand new _______ came.Babe-pelicious.Hehehe.

And the furry kings obviously enjoying their deep sleep there..Jangan scratch sudah!Pukul nanti!

Can't wait to show off to the rest when they come home!

Anyway weekends sucks now a days having to stuck with someone the whole freaking day.I totally don't enjoy it.So not fun.If not because of money.......More off my coming weekends to burn up!

Okay I just ate something fattening.GUILT!thanks to Syaqilah and her bf!Run...!

ps: Mummy I want a big house that floods entirely with money.Wah!!!!=D

i'm there

2010-04-08T11:59:00.010+08:00

I'm half way there to my winning point.Half way more..I need to endure this!

It's all the test of mind.Really.

For today we give it a rest do rather light ones.But will be a longer distance tomorrow.Dear cuzzie,don't get jealous.you can ask the Bangla join you.So that they can live longer.hahaha

I shall leash Pearl to accompany me so she can have lots lots of boyfriends*Hint Hint!to all Toms out there.She's available!!To my masculine Bearbear will get you one fineeeeee.......sexy bitch soon.And you'll owe me one BIG fat paw love!*I'm so proud to be their owner.Love love them to core!

Anyways I miss people those names start from A - Z.miss me back!

*I'm sooooooo not looking forward to the weekends.So not fun!If not because of that I won't do.

Lighting don't strike the same place twice.

2010-04-06T15:11:00.002+08:00

This song glued in my mind for quite sometime.NICE NEYO!

got wasted,some people.aiyah........

2010-04-05T13:21:00.006+08:00

It's Tina's party this time round.Zouk night out!But a long long day for me.

Everyone got their heartbeat pump up and body dancing.Hafiz the freshees also.Tak percayer aku.hahaha

Everyone was having blast fun until someone got wasted.Aiyah.Spoiler!!Wild night!

Happy birthday Girl!Dah tue!

Rain

2010-04-02T13:52:00.002+08:00

LET THE RAIN CLEAR YOUR FOOTSTEPS OFF SO THAT I CAN DANCE IN IT

PS:Some people don't appreciate.They can just fuck off!

sialan

2010-04-01T21:34:00.005+08:00

I'm gonna post in my mother tongue language!
(Good luck fucker!)

Ini hari amat membosankan.Duduk di rumah hanya memukai empat dinding sekeliling.Mendampingi kucing2 busuk kesayangan dah juga adik aku yg *leng beng heng(tidak payah susah2 mencari perkataan tersebut dalam kamus kerana ia tidak wujud)Haha.
Aku bangun tidur dengan mata yang tembel di sebelah kiri.Sial...mak cik dier tul...!
Sejak semenjak ini ibu saya ada seorang pembantu rumah sukarelawan tanpa gaji yang sungguh rajin dan lawa.*(aku la tu).Rumah sentiasa bersih.

WTF!I took about nearly half an hour to write this whole paragraph.Gd.I think I need to practice writing in my second language now.

Ps:Majulah anak melayu!Whahahahaha.semangat kemelayuan!

day

2010-03-31T17:17:00.004+08:00

The day a girl turn a year older = )

A Hell of a day where also we cuzzies kept watch our each other asses.

Love

2010-03-31T02:08:00.007+08:00

Dear Daddy

It's nice seeing you walking together with Mummy again.I wish I could turn back the time and make everything right.I'm sorry if we didn't ask you along and deeply we knew you wanted to.Wanted to spend catching up time with us.Having to know that you are having dinner by yourself.It's still sad making our separate ways home.But with all this feelings, and with your down facial expressions I knew you are happy with them now.If not you wouldn't chose them over us.YES,you decided to be with them not us.

Well,daddy we are happier now with mummy despite all her sacrifices she has done.And I want you to know that we respected your decisions and it is wrong.It's all already written down and in the hands of the above.It's good if you are happy cause we are happier now!

Love,
Your daughter

Swift

2010-03-29T10:55:00.003+08:00

Today not bad to start a day..I saw this beautiful bitch smack infront of my face when opening my eyes asking for a pet.Purring and all.Love her to the max!
And that Ghost bastard was preferably dozing in between two Rapunzels hardly with me.Ass!Haha

I don't know if I were to stuck at my castle with my mean step sisters again with never ending house work.My Prince-ss still finding my fucking shoe till 2.30pm.Then off to visit his sick gandmama.(*I miss my late grandmama) = (

Anyways hoping to have a better day today.Praying IT past by quickly and soon to be forgotten off.Adjusting to blend with the surrounding.I'm trying here.

What I want is to fly on a plane to nowhere.

Ps.:When can I Shop till drop get up to hop then FREAKING SHOP again?!

2010-03-28T19:47:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling her.Woop!

i've learnt a new word today

2010-03-27T19:00:00.006+08:00

I did hair beading just now for Citibank.Mostly kids did it.They are so cute!I wish I'm like them again.Never to think of responsibilities or even to think before talking.K>I>D>S!

Had those 'Currents' moments again like few weeks back.Haha.OoHk!I wish they have that kind of event again.Damn...

Our messages

Cuz: It's a good risk but are you willing to bear the consequences?

me:I can't decide If I never try.And I can never know.I know I'm taking a damn risk here.But having to think for the rest of my life .WORST!

Cuz: Good choice of words.Impressive!

Me:=)

Am I crazy or what?Is this what I really want.Or am I doing it just because I'm in a tight situation here.Screw it!

I FUCKING NEED TO THINK AGAIN!!

Helo bastard!

2010-03-26T20:44:00.002+08:00

Now a days has been wrecked for me.Having to freaking think,making major wise decisions involving endless feelings.
HAH!Feelings again.Why can't they just 'F' off!

But still I'm thankful of having few good pairs of listening ears and also to have few sincere good talking hearts around.'Bow..Bow..'

Well,I've made big big confessions to few living souls be it on purpose or not.Yes, at least I do have balls to admit it all.
I'm relieved after all those silence-explosive-brain dead,mind numbing moments I've been through.But it's selfish though.This is what I feel.And I,myself can't Lie.

That's Life you know,being rejected nor accepted.Having to be happy nor destructive.
After a cry nor crazy laughs OR having to clap with one hand nor both.It still moves on.
MOVE ON....
I swear I do have a soft heart.Why?!
BECAUSE I've always been careful with others' that I wasn't careful enough with mine.This happens.
It takes lots of encouragement,determination to decide and tell.No fault to fEeL.We are freaking human being for god sake.We have brain to think.Heart to feel!

Therefor be slight changes.But who cares.Time still ticking you know.
Bad or not.MOVE on..

Babies,you all will know,now or way later.u know.
Love the mean people around!SHIT PEACE!!

you are dead

2010-03-23T10:55:00.004+08:00

Blog=Dead

My freaking connection, blardy slow.Me frustrated!that's why I freaking lazy to update.

I'm writing a note to ....bare with my emo shit!

Dear feelings,
I don't understand you.
You change there and then.
You come and you go.
You are always right never been wrong.
I hate you.
Hate you!

ok, I'm blogging crap!bye.

Ps,I like you. =)

who says....

2010-02-23T12:11:00.003+08:00

I like when somebody told me that I can't do it.It make me want to do more.....

Yeah..just like old times..Full of it.
I'm dying.=)

H

2010-02-22T21:27:00.004+08:00

Okay this time is our 2nd week of partying.Preferably the 1 one.We party like some hardcore-drugged-addicted rockstar.I hope more to come barbies.Next week?
Well,should I say everyone got high on life...we dance our funken night off.Well guess what...I burn my newly dress up which there's one ass obvious hole that I couldn't hide.Thanks to my nextchill cigi!!But who cares,club was dark.

=)

I can help but still stuck with this damn fuck thinking..

Anyways I think my blog dieded...995 please.

irritation

2010-02-16T10:15:00.002+08:00

Fuck this thinking.Damn it.

I know it's impossible....

I wish it's possible.

I hope it does the next time.....Whahahahaha.

If only I can just erase from my mind now..As It's a waste of time.But I couldn't help it..

I hope that soul feels......

I hope........

I hope.................

I hope...............................

I hope...........................................

On the other farking hand I SO KNEW I can't as it's just

TEMPORARY HIGHS!

*only some,knew what I meant....whahahahahahaahha....I'm still in cloud nine,my babes.

party everyday..

2010-02-13T18:44:00.006+08:00

It was an AWESOME night!Blazing...
After along time not partying with them..We were damn all out.....
Rebel,like someone said 1 girl 20 guys.....Hell!

We do this again!!!!!Hell yeah!

Grandma Love.

2010-02-06T22:30:00.007+08:00

She left.
I just wish that it wasn't true.Just another bad dream of my.But indeed it was.

I woke up receiving a call that I would never want to pick.I refused to believe what was being said and insistingly wouldn't want to register.I was being so stubborn that I shut my mind to blank.
So I did pass over the news till then I realise that it was real pain to swallow.
It was then I knew she's gone.Grieving.
I was too numb to think of anything else but her.
All I knew then that I didn't regret that I had her hug for the very last time when I had the chance to and knowing she was always there when I miss her.But now....

She was pass border when happened which the reason being I didn't when for the last respect(Which I want to,really)as I would be way so grief-stricken to the funeral and the sorrowful atmosphere.And also having to see her and to accept the fact that she's leaving forever.

I visited my aunt's place and spent the day with my couz and also visited her room where she used to stay.It's so peaceful just the way she left.
I grew up practically with her love,care and guidance and also for her family which would greatly feel her lost.
I wish I could be able thank her heartedly.
I miss you grandma,always will and thank you.
Al-Fateha.....

stuck!

2010-01-26T13:36:00.002+08:00

I swear that my brain stuck to this song now!

6 stars for song
5 stars video

Thanks to this girl which I hope I can get to know you better. =)
Hahahaha.

shoosh!

2010-01-18T11:38:00.008+08:00

First of all shoosh the dust away!Been awhile huh!
Updates!Firstly Happy 2010!I know wrong time to greet but at least I did.
My yearly(forever) resolution invite more money in.Haha.

We were at Sg flyers celebrating with bubble and Yusri.We brought what is needed for the occasion till wee morning. Ain joined us for a short while.She then left.Well the usual,welcoming the year by the fireworks and crowded people.

We then headed to search more comfort place to drunk our way to our first hours of the brand new year.The sun is never our friend when we taken over by hangovers.

January sure a month of Birthday celebration.May the worst I think!haha
Next Yen Qi birthday which she already has her key to freedom.Happy Birthday babe!I'm glad to see all the fish people we still somehow have this kind of bond even each of us left like years or months ago.We were laughing like nobody business the entire time.We had dinner at FishMarket.Very contradicting right!Yen Qi la!So much wants to eat there.We sure do this again sometime.

Then my Trojen bubble birthday.Yeah!He's like damn old la.Oii when want to propose me?haha(joking).He was surprised by the fishy people at work and also with my sisters at home.Padan muker.We planned earlier on the phone and it works.Thanks my dearies sisses.You guys rock!At least the cake was still intact!.whahaha.The cake was nice indeed.The day on his birthday bubbly allowed me having to make a replace my lost i/c.And I was surprised also that some kind-hearted creature returned it to the rightful place and then to the rightful owner.I'm like jumping frog being able to see my 15 years of age face.Yeah!Bubbly and me were smiling the whole freaking day despite the fact that we were celebrating his day.no kidding.RELIEVED!

cute kan.Macam nak picit picit pipi dier!

We were treated to a buffet at Sakura!And this sis of mine the stomach like wanna to kena smack!The whole night sulking.(which obviously you can't see her ovaltine face here as she's faking it.hahaha)But me and bubble weren't giving up..hahaha.We had to cut our food down after the very day.See our tummies la!mummy had her usual coffee there.The rest of us were like mixing here and there like some kind of witch cooking her voodoo pot.hahahaha!

As for me,I'm still at B.M.C which i think I'm like some kind of a poster face working there.And the bosses there were fucking irritating!But sis is working there also.So not of a boredom when she's there.

I shaved my head again and it's freaking uneven.Hubby la!!!I cried because of that and bubble was like farking panicked seeing me like that.That day also,some complimented on my shaved head WHICH made me cried and bubbly panicking earlier on.whahahahaha.Funny siak!

O!I've started reading books which I wish I could have started way back in school.haha
Cause I've told Ijah that I'm always half way through a book and gave up.
But the biography I'm reading now is so interesting that her life was horrendous that she nearly wanted to gave away but instead she's still fighting for more.
And I can't wait for the next and the next chapters!
-Fauziya Kassindja-

words are cheap...

2009-12-28T18:33:00.002+08:00

Let me get this out from my chest.
I know some of you know that I don't favour Beyonce Knowles music.
Now I need to admit that I love one of her song.Truly deeply meaningful.
Okay!You guys win...
White flag.

I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you
I'm a puzzle yes in deed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day.

[Chorus]
I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you [3x]

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that
I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
and that's exactly what I mean.

[Chorus]
I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
and that's why I love you [3x]

[Repeat Chorus]

FLAWS AND ALL!

Jingle bells and the whole of new year.

2009-12-25T21:50:00.007+08:00

Those picture above were at Theresa's party.There whole lot of food,drinks,wine,companies.Was great. Colourful presents flooded her Christmas tree.Many laughter's and cigarettes.I was expecting few people to come which they are busy and stuff.
Anyway I madly love my Christmas gifts especially my nude purse.Looking at it so often that "someone" got jealous.haha.
Its so gorgeous that I'm like finding cards trying to fill up the slots .Thanks loads to the bosses.

The whole of new year coming soon.Farewell '09.
This year was a great year somehow.A year full of beautiful things happened.
A year I got back to many people I've lost touched coupled of years.Which was great to see them again.A year that I've got to know people better.
Whereas for my family it's a smooth sailing journey.Hopefully will always be.
For the upcoming year hoping to get better perspective of life and career.
Some goes for both another two Nydiah[s] and my loving bubble.
And for my beautiful kitties.be PHAT!

haiz---ism

2009-12-23T19:45:00.003+08:00

I've lost big time...I felt illegal here...But on the lucky side I've still have my watson card plus my tapping card with me..I'm still waiting for the return of my offical pinky card which no one wants to return...Nabeh!
Anyway it's been quite a period of time me no clean house.When got to do it....I felt RELIEVED !
Home is the BEST!!!!!!!!

Heartless

2009-12-18T03:21:00.002+08:00

"Dear Yana

I just wish that you can read this.
I don't know either you have to work or you are force to work.
I really think you don't deserve this kind of treatment from them.
You never deserve to be called stupid.
How I wish if I could defend you.And just tell the dogs to fuck off.
How can I just give you the courage to tell them I'm done now.
I really hope you find a better environment and place to be comfortable with,soon.
And not treating you like some kind of an animal.
Which I really know that you are willing to but you are too scared to.
I really hope that I can help you in which you have to help yourself first.
Please just leave that place."

I was so long in my comfort zone till I was new again.I realise that when you are up there you expect everything to be up there too.When I am from zero,I remember my roots.Learning takes mistakes.Mistakes is learning.Mistakes doesn't equals stupid.They are fucking wrong.Real wrong.It's judgement.Looks doesn't count it's where the heart wants it.

What and who?

2009-12-09T21:34:00.002+08:00

If you ask me What am I afraid of?

Honestly I'm afraid to lose anyone for good.Especially the closest ones.

I've been helping kak Ijah with her events mostly on weekends.It's partly fun.
Me at IMM giving away free sweet smell popcorn to the kiasu barbarians which some of them shamelessly wants more.Typical!
And I met little Suri and her nice grandma there.The very shy,sweet girl which I adore much has went back to her home town in America.I didn't get a hug from her which I planing to that day.Sadly,by the time I decided to I was told she's off...Atleast I have her printed photo together with me.I miss her..

And on top that my friend together with her family migrating to Indonesia soon.
AND there a few more planing to,coming future.

That's how much I cherish people.Which some people don't.
Life goes on...

Well reality sucks!
And truth hurts!

2009-12-03T17:52:00.004+08:00

At one point of time,I truly miss her and that I wanna meet her.
Worse,saw her recent photo somewhere that made me teared.
I'm grateful having her partly bringing me up.

The very day,reuniting.With her welled up eyes,tightly hugged me a clear indication that she felt the very same way as I did.Well I'm overwhelmed to see her,still strong just the way I last saw her years back.In fact I'm actually nervous,anxious,excited..mixed feelings.

Right after i stepped out,I was relieved.
But I came to a conclusion that somethings can never be change and some can never be amend.
The past is always the past.

2009-12-01T20:25:00.002+08:00

I was thinking to have a gathering among my friends who adore cats.Bringing our babies along.Sure fun.
But the thought of cats the first thing that came to my mind was cat fight!!
They are independent babies not like dogs.
And to imagine having a lease on a cat.Can be done but weird looking.

Bear2 will be visiting the vet end of next month to be sterilize.We thought of taking him somewhere this month which he's not even at his 6 month yet...
When he reach 1 year old.I'm sure to buy their 11kg of food...Makan kau sampai gemok!

two different things

2009-11-27T01:03:00.002+08:00

NEED=Something that is necessary

WANT=Something that is desired.

Most of the time I stepped into Daiso it took me three hours to shop the things I want....
And not the things I need...
Anyway that's my favourite place to fill my time with..

Bearbear getting bigger and my baby Pearl getting lazier....

*(I think they will mate love one day..hahaha)

I miss Ah huat already.

recall

2009-11-25T20:02:00.000+08:00

This was taken last year,a day with the crazy dude and chix....

This is my baby sis's birthday cake this year which I made with YQ.Where as for her she made for Kenneth...Both birthday babies fall on close dates...But Syaqilah cake last year was a picture of some yellow power ranger...Whahahaha.....padanmuker..

This one was the cuzziez meet up....It's our first time but we had fun....Which I think there'll be more to come...

I soooo upset about the cruelty of animal still happening around in singapore.Inhuman.
And it's all Syaqilah's fault....

Envy

2009-11-19T03:29:00.005+08:00

Since I'm a facebooker not long ago...I actually reconnected with my old pals all the way back from primary school.And unexpectedly knowing that some are having family on their own and some have accomplished.I'm like doing what...I don't know...(living in my own lost world I think.....)

And I've this girl friend under my friend list who has been married,have a beautiful son and leading a wonderful life...And guess what....She posted this on her photo album...
"A spontaneous holiday to Turkey.Booking both accommodation and flight within 24hrs.The 1st family trip with my son..bla....bla...bla..."

I was like,what???!!!!
A trip to Turkey right before 24 hrs you decided to go there...
What the fuck....
I'm like telling Syaqilah.What if I were to tell her at this moment that "Let's go we go Hawaii tomorrow.And we booked a flight let say 2am tomorrow.'' Dream on.

It take months for us to actually plan for a damn vacation where as for this girl took 24hrs.
It's not even a business trip for goodness sake...
Her husband must be damn rich I think...
I envy her cause I knew her as an ordinary girl.
I'm not being sarcastic and rude.
I'm happy for her,really.
But I wish my FAT dreams come true....Hahahahahaha!

*Bear2 you've escaped death 3 times...Please don't do anything again!!!I'm serious.

my brain...

2009-11-13T20:25:00.001+08:00

Free-IQTest.net - Online IQ Test

My brain is working at least..
Yeah!!!!!I'm suprised!

ALWAYS BE MY BABY.

2009-11-11T12:38:00.005+08:00

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby.

I love David cook's version more.

*How I wish he understands this.

2009-11-10T22:56:00.002+08:00

Wanna give a big THANK YOU to fb.Let me reconnect again about 85% of people I've known.Power kan..
Just meet up few bunches of Crazy peeps recently.And it's great!
Just having catching up moments now...
For the rest that I've been with a while...Let's meet up again and again and again!

guess biatches....haha

2009-11-08T09:51:00.004+08:00

_ _ _ _

_ _ _ _ _ _ N _

clue: living things

Phew!...

2009-11-05T14:27:00.005+08:00

I found this good old times picture at Ain's friendster..

Look how fast we grow.Everybody seem to get marry.

But I don't think either the four of us planing ours soon.

First day, we wanted to express the long missed period.

We were too awkward to do so.

We hugged closely the next time.And I felt total happiness with pure relief.

It's the moment I tell her I miss you and the rest.

And glad we had this time to.

We had fun truly..and always will........

Entah eh?

2009-10-27T02:58:00.004+08:00

Okay I want to be stupid here.
I'm wondering if I'm using correct grammar all along.
whahaha!

Ghost Day

2009-10-26T13:26:00.012+08:00

We are attach to Singapore flyers for 6 days to craft.With Halloween around the corner,it's kinda fun dressing up to have face painted and stuffs.We had fun.
The whole mall filled with children crys.Whahahaha.As there are on-land-basis ghost walking scaring kids away.
I even saw one of them taking escalator up instead of flying.Oh ya!and another one went to the gents.whahahahahahahaha!

Then there this very cute white kid did the craft.He was communicating with me with his mother tongue language.I really don't know what the heck he's talking.I'm also not sure where he's really from.
The only thing I replied was"Aku tak faham la ape yang kau berbual."
Then he kept blabbering on.
Shasha was like "Kak DD,ini baru kate ayam dengan itik."hahaha.WTF.

The Best Pic of the Day

Kesian Hantu nie kena bully

ISOLIKEthispic

Pearl and Bear2

I'm dead soon

2009-10-21T18:26:00.006+08:00

So many things happened so lazy to summerise and type...

Let me start with my Oh-my-so-wanna-slap-face.haha

Syaqilah ask me to pose the most cutest face I can ever pose.Well here's the result.Like want to smek right!

This is from my Scandalous.Trust me this board got full of shit written down always.whaha!

Oh my gosh she's gonna kill me soon!

Okay this what happened last Saturday.Well Shasha's nephew got some 'shave-hair' festive.

We acutally have our own party.Let me list out the culprits:Me,my two sis,Shasha and her Bf and Yasmin.We played 'kahwin2', 'rewang' poker cards,talk nonsense,having our 'rewang' puffs.no alcohol only.Halal party okay.

Year 2009

Upcoming in year 2020

Shasha blooms!

The couz

Family make you feel HOME!No matter what.

fly me

2009-10-17T00:41:00.005+08:00

I just love the hustling and bustling sounds of aeroplanes departing off it's runway.

It feels freedom.

It nurture me with the wonders of sceneries in an altitude,anywhere.

I think when I'm a child I only understood an aeroplane is a flying machine with wings.

Now it teaches me to feel and embrace.It more than just a plane.

It's amazing to feel that you can just be anywhere in the world in a short time.

It give you the excitement of the breathing taking natures and surprises of the different beautiful people.

I've learnt to alight with an open mind.And to fly beyond imagination

Whenever a plane fly over me it's overwhelming.

I want to stand on every part of the Earth.To witness god's creations.

1 more year..

2009-10-11T17:39:00.002+08:00

Syaqilah:"Kau dengan abang dah beraper lama arh?"

Me:"Mana aku tau?"

Syaqilah:"Kau ambekkan aku pena,paper,calculator."

Me:"Banyak cantik muker kau."

Syaqilah:"Eh!takpe..tak pe..Aku korek diary diary lama aku."

What!We've known for big fucking NINE YEARS.The stress is on man.

We didn't noted any monthly or yearly celebrations ever.One more year,it's been a decade we've loved.If it happen then it happen.All you know 'the' card arrive.Whaha.But not any soon.

We are discussing some issues,planings and stuff.But entahlah...

Tunggulah korang eh....

I told someone once that being in a too long relationship the flames somehow die off.

I realised it just take for me to dig deep down inside and ask.

Appreciate.

Faith.

This picture was inspire by my sis whom she took with her bf.

Whahahaha.Old skool!

My fishy colleague came to my small castle for Hari raya!It's was awesome.

I love them!

Yen qi sure got alot of 'dosa' with Wen Jing.

THE BEST PICTURE OF THE DAY!I LIKE!

Pearline sure like my ghost cat.Whereas for the rest love Ah Huat's chicken.

For Love,Happy 9 years together.

2009-10-03T14:59:00.002+08:00

I'm not well physically,emotionally and mentally.

something shouts me!Booms!

2009-10-03T02:48:00.006+08:00

Before I start all this shit.I'm glad Ms Ris Low stepped down representing as what she wasn't suppose to be!

So much so that I don't want to but I have to.I never want this.

Too much that I can't run away but to run away from others.

I knew life is never a bed of roses and running doesn't solves.

All I want to do now is just to lay down flat refuse standing up.

Just gaze and breathe.If you do nothing,none will go wrong.Correct?

What did I do to deserve this?Did I ever murder somebody or shoot down one to get this.I'm not being a sensitive emotional-pathetic shit here.But seriously.It's fucking affect every side of me.My entire fucking LIFE!Why......

And yes I'm dissapointedly-angry

Truthfully,I never regretted to have him by my side

all the time.

2009-10-02T13:44:00.002+08:00

My cat CUTE right!

Raya 09 part 2

2009-09-28T19:36:00.006+08:00

Hari raya part 2.The weekend for families visit.Aunts and uncles rented a blue-sauna~ish-covered van.Whatever it is I don't want to take any public transport .But have to endure the fats burning in the earlier of the day.But it was a packed-fun-glamourous outing.There's paparazzi,reporters and journalist.Kecoh!

As for my aunties they have their own hobbies or specialties that was displayed that day in cooking,baking,sewing and talking and talking and gossip and goss_.........not to forget mummy too.

Me and Shasha were too shagged to go for the last house.Ijah's bed best.

Handsomekan future husband-gonna-be aku.

I don't know how long she had this bag with her.6yrs?

My 3rd aunt made this Banana Chocolate cake.Yami..

My 3rd aunt too Blueberry cheese cake.I didn't had that cause i don't like cheese cake.But it looks good.

My 4th aunt rented a Swensen ice cream booth.Haha..NO LAH!

hari raya 09

2009-09-24T06:26:00.004+08:00

It's been a while I've not update.Busy la,preps for raya.Buy this buy that,looking this looking that,cleaning this cleaning that.I'm eager this year to celebrate.First day I call it a 'crying session day'.Seeking forgiveness with the elderly.If it's from the heart it's truly emotional meaning that you've never been good through out the year.Ish ish ish...haha

Syaqilah cried so I think she got many 'dosa'.Aiyoh tak tahu!

Aidah too....haiz...

Girly moments

So the gossip session started.After gossip ask for forgiveness.balance what.

I still got it!!!!!!!!Yahooooooooooooooooooooooooo...........

Shasha your face....whahahahaha.cannot angkat see..

Chey Tin2 with baju kurung.Only once a year to see her wearing that...

Yan grew up.Talkative.Very cute boy!

I always miss this person when comes to Hari raya.I really want to see her before it's too late....I just need to.

Jenny,you take care

2009-09-24T04:21:00.014+08:00

Jenny decided to give it a quit and move on.I'm very happy for her.23th Sept 09 was her last day here.The chances coming back was told is very thin.So we send her off the the airport.It was good cause it's some kind of a reunion for us and also a recollection of memories with Jenny.So this is it.The last moment with Jenny as after that the dependence on global networking to keep in contact with her.

Jenny's and friend baggages

Jp fishes

Imm fishes

A speech for us which lead a few to tears and also her.

Sad Sad moment

Her flight was delayed i think

Wishing her all the best..for the upcoming.

We miss you!

g.i.l.a

2009-09-13T01:01:00.006+08:00

We had a feast breaking fast that day.Bubbly had (P)owerful (M)ood (S)wing that time cause i think he just need someone to bust out his lip...Even that he enjoyed his crab and I can't.

People, now 'botak' season...recommended.The result shown above.whahahaha.

Dearest sis

Please stop brushing your teeth cause I pity the dentist as they still need their job for living.Your face sucks!whahaha.

Iamsohappytoseemyfatlazycatlikethis

I think she's like"I need to lean on something if not I'm pissed!"

I'll soon update OK...

2009-09-11T00:37:00.002+08:00

I'M BUSY.........

Lrt...

2009-09-04T20:16:00.003+08:00

During this holy month,the best place to shop for your preps is Geylang.But the thing is having Singapore's weather during our shopping spree....only god knows..amin...Mummy completely leave us to decide for the preps.Yeah!!Apa lagi takde tunggu punnyer........carpet,cushion covers,flower,bla..bla..bla..

Oh yah!Bubbly was force by you know who to buy songkok.Haha...he'll look complete.We are in Purple this year.My darling colour.Hmmm...and scan room too....jealous!

The best buy was the sofa that my lovely mummy found....but it only come after rayer so cannot show off......takpe la...got next year.

And today was hell.I seriously hate today beside the few things.The rest sucks especially the LRT.Now I've issues with that green electronic-operated thing.Hate them.I don't know how the hell people boarding survive with that.

What cools me was my mum's fried laksa for the break-fast.YUMMMMMieeee....even though me & my bisol sis were abit late.

**Nydiah K can't wait for next tues for the meet up.I miss alot of people....scan...tina...so on so forth....

Words

2009-08-29T02:50:00.006+08:00

Life only filled with full of bloody words.What more shit words can be?

People tend to deny they are judgemental and being stereotype.Come on la

don't tell me bullshit that you're not.Having preceptions in whatever matters looks like.

If you got time to think you have time judging.It screwed me as to know that to have things looking like this and have a crappy judgement like that.

It's very hard pleasing asses around cause if it's too pleased they think it's fake.And too less they think we fucking don't care.It's like either way is wrong no matter good or worst.What more do people want.Cause I'm not being sensative people it's evolving everyday.I'M STATING THE FUCKING FACTS!

It's a motherfucker world.

TUUUUUUUUUUU.....

2009-08-28T18:01:00.002+08:00

-SOMETIMES IT'S SUCKS TO BE ME-

Fast

2009-08-22T21:01:00.004+08:00

First day was good cause I'm at home the whole fucking day.I know I'm a major loser at fasting.Having to be rebellious besides the grand opening and closing ceremony.BUT...!!!!!I'm trying this year.Hell yeah....

I'm close to satisfaction for prettying up my living room just need cleaning and putting up pieces here and there.And my room as always satisfIED.My sis room....hmm...okie la....hehe.But don't worry sis(s) you've a month still.

I was called up to help in banquet.I'm excited actually.EXCEPT having to face all the sicko people.Oh ya..Cinderella on ice is coming so will be hell busy.And I'm no good with kids.I always think that the stage crews of the esplanade are cool.I don't know what shit that they're going through behind the spotted-light stage.I would like to know though.I can become their lighting crew.Haha!

Anyways Pearl has been too well till she grew FAT!

It's a HE

2009-08-20T18:21:00.002+08:00

NOORHAFIZZAH BINTE RAHMAN!

Kistal is a HE.What the fuck!We just found out today!Hahaha.

What a bad owner!

It's very difficult for us to determine that it's a he.

The two thingy haven really develope yet.What a shock!

Don't believe,look at this!

Now tell me where the balls?

Anyways since Kistal sounds girlish.We change name.It's BearBear!How cute!

It's kinda weird calling 'him' and 'BearBear'.We have to.

I'm sure he grow up bigger than my Beloved Pearlie Pearl.But I like.

I see Matrix shit is coming.My IKEA vases!!

...............

2009-08-18T16:04:00.004+08:00

Nabeh cibai...

I wanna to go this lost-world-in-trance-music party.

Power ass ridiculously FUN shit !

And I love this boy and his music!

Come along House haters.

on a serious note

2009-08-16T21:27:00.004+08:00

HOW?
It's the matter how I feel.
It's not a feeling of desperation somewhat an acceptance.
What do they think of me?
Let them know themselves.

It's a colourful world!

I found this note somewhere.Super fucking funny!

I pity her .

I came a cross this question"Are you a jealous person?"

Ans:Yes!Cause Pearl have 3 pairs I only have 1.Haha!

This is what happens when.....

2009-08-13T03:09:00.006+08:00

This is what happens when going to IKEA.

This is what happens when trying to savour a chewy donut.

I don't whether it's my sis's legs or her pant?

This is what happens after I told him"My money,my money.Your money,my money!"

If i'm too stuck in the bathroom.You should know what am I doing.

I hate this part right here!

She hates that part right there.

That's for soil for goodness sake!

I'm lovin it!

I've already tested.It works well.

Yah true!she's rubbish!

my mode-lalalalala......

Delicious

2009-08-10T15:03:00.003+08:00

I don't mind watching them everyday.
I don't mind watching them everyday.
I don't mind watching them everyday.
I don't mind watching them everyday.
I don't mind watching them everyday.

300 of them.

my mode-yum yum..

And yes I love my cats!

2009-08-07T21:58:00.003+08:00

Pearl before(fierce seh!)

Pearl now...

Yes!I love my cats dearly.I don't mind spending for them.They are well-pampered.

My baby Pearl had her surgery and was brought back home yesterday.

Today,she's so weak that she slept the whole day.

She needs 'ample dample ample' rest.

She looks funny with her e-collar as to avoid irritate her stitches.

"Pearl please do something to your weight!"

My mission is still on going.

They gonna be a very healthy and FAT cats!huahuahua!!!

my mode-sian!

Stomp 09

2009-08-07T00:43:00.005+08:00

STOMP 09 is coming!!!!

I'm actually gathering people to watch.

Date:8 October 2009 Thursday

Time:8.00pm

Venue:Esplanade Theater

Those who confirmed we decided on buying a $100 ticket.

Which I need to buy them early probably next week as if not we 'might' get a shitty view seats.

People who had already confirmed going are:-

Me
Ah Huat
Tina
Addne
Yus
Hafiz

People who GOING to confirm :-

Putri
Putri's husband

Anybody who are interested please inform me fast as I'm purchasing the tickets soon.

And we'll have a hell of a time!

*ps:we are planing on some drinking session after that!

my mode-excited

kiss my kistal.Wtf.

2009-08-04T14:12:00.007+08:00

I seriously think i won't survive with that for fucking full days. Well i'm still alive now.

Keri Hilson-"I hate heels.I hate heels.Love how they look but hate how they feel."

When shopping with bubbly met Shasha and her bf .I bought shoes and collectable things of mine.I think I'm too "crave" to buy many empty notebooks(which i loveeeee.... the designs of the cover) that I have tons of them at home that never been use.

I remember I went to IKEA with Jenny and bought like 5 different kinds of funky designs of napkins that also haven been use

Then Jenny was like "You more crazier than me!I bought 2 of that before and thought i was crazy"

3 August 2009- Hot tea+ Cigarettes+Tina,Addne,Avi,Ah huat and me= Laughing/Madness.

My couz Ijah suggested Kistal her a full name..... KISS MY Kistal.hahahahaha.Ass!

Which Pearl got hers.Pretty Pearlie Pearl.

Tomorrow

meet Jenny for lunch
sending Pearl for her surgery at night

He's/She's taken.So back off!!!Hahaha!

mode-sleepy

I have Pearls and Crystals

2009-07-31T16:31:00.005+08:00

PRESENTING KISTAL

Is she the cutest thing or what!

She was brought home by mom on the verge of dying.

And now!!! dupperly active like shit.We even couldn't keep up with her.

We were anxious and nervous if our Pearlie Pearl would be able to get along with her.And not having Matrix shit.Haha!They did got along well.I mean REALLY REALLY WELL(ehem ehem..).

Look at them!Sweet or what!

Now the funny thing is that Pearl has become a "Queen".Her persistent meowing keep us laughing as in she has grew too fast in need of a lifetime partner.

Maybe the presence of Kistal made Pearl's motherly nature appear.

"And now anybody can tell me how the hell I'm going to find Pearl a BOYFRIEND???#$%^&*(*&^%#&*)())(&$@$%%"

my mode-SHOPping!!!!!

Music = Life

2009-07-27T03:40:00.002+08:00

My sis once told me that I listen to weird kind of music and which some bands she never knew existed before.

It's true.I listen to all sorts from r&b,Hip hop to pop,rock,indie,alternative,jazz to soul,house,reggae,dancehall to blues,electronic and many more.

I don't have any favourite genre in particular.

The songs that are under my playlist inside my ipod like 'rojak' I tell you.

Maybe my ears just wants to listen whenever it's nice to.

Anyway let me introduce a band called THE KNIFE.

The brother and sister(Olof Dreijer and Karin Dreijer Andersson)duo all the way from Sweden.

Specialise in electronic genre.And run their own record company.Cool or what!

I love this music video.As in it's kind of funny shit,If you know the message behind.

BTW Olof he's PERFECTLY CUTE!!!

I'm still having a fucking hard time finding 'Days Like This by Josh Mease'

*Anybody who have this song please tell me where to find it!TQ.

my mode-sad

for you kat.

2009-07-22T00:16:00.007+08:00

"That area you wipe already or not?

(Her acting busy with don't know whatever shit she's doing which she thinks she can create good impressions.)
Don't expect me to clean your shit for you!
Don't tell me your mom still wipe your fucking butt.You can straight jump down for her sake.

"dah berak cuci la!"*roll eyes*

Some people!
I'm not being calculative in work.Some people they just don't care.Who suffer?
(a big) US

my mode-shagged

packed

2009-07-19T21:56:00.002+08:00

Welcome me back to my no-life world.

My schedule is jammed-pack next week.

I'm gonna miss Bubbly the most.I just want him 24/7 beside me

I just need some words of encouragement from him right now.

Addne,Doreen-See you girls soon as i can't come down to visit you guys.
Ijah-Welcome back to the service world.I know TCC rock you!
Jenny,Yen Qi,Wen Jing-Hello! When to meet up?
Hubby-I'm loving you!

my mode-haiz...

can't sleep

2009-07-15T20:28:00.002+08:00

Party canceled.Then we when to our own.Insomia rock.

So the nabeh I had stomach cramp that day.
Save me Pink bullet!

my mode-feeling rock.Yeeeeeaah...

Matrix Shit!

2009-07-06T15:11:00.007+08:00

I've been thinking as to whether to adopt another domestic cat.
Hah!For that much convincing for mum to agree.I'm sure the other two girls want it too.

(***Don't blare to me how much you did for our present cat.Pearlie Pearl.
I did my part too.Giving her much attention and love!WhaWhaWhaWha!!!)

Btw,mum's vase was broken yesterday.More to come...

Back to adopting,cats are very territorial so if I were to bring one more,LEADS TO THIS....

This what I call Matrix shit!haha!You think who won?

Should we?
If we decide,I want a scottish-fold cat!!!They are the cutest thing in the world.

Watch this video.I'm sooooooo touched!!.I wish my Pearlie Pearl can hug me like that.

my mode-hungry

Aidah no longer illegal

2009-06-30T11:38:00.005+08:00

1. I FUCKING LOVE JASON MRAZ!

2.They geared up for summer challenge and got 4th place.(Not bad huh!)
Cb number 0498!Suppose to be 0499!But..........Fun 3x!!!

Cheap Redbull advertise!

Flying cheerleaders!

.Soccer-first round out!

.Beachvolleyall-Finals!

I ask them to change profession.Haha.To become volleyball national players!

Initially I wanted to name the team 'BISKUT'.But they applied for team 'BUDDIES'.Boleh la.I'm just the team paparazzi!Haha.

3.Aidah Kutik turn legal age!

Happy Birthday Girl!!Lots of hug hugs and love loves!
Get a job for goodness sake!

The main sponsor of the party and the Bday girl!

4.Pearl very naughty!

my mode-boring

Me dead?

2009-06-24T16:53:00.005+08:00

Finally just the two of us.We spent our day unplanned.It's those on-the-spot agreement that kind filled our whole day.We window-shopped/hopped as we running out of cash as you can tell which part of the month now.

Our last visit was Funan IT mall as we got used of our eyes to the metallic gadets.This booth caught me suddenly as I was trying to figure out if it's the same as the Jurong Point branch,I got myself into a muddy situation.haha.

As usual being a professional saleman after much presuading,convincing,influencing.1 more customer added to their list.Even before being introduce to their product I know that elements from the DEAD SEA are good.Natural minerals help to rejuvenates and moisturise skin.Especially for me having skin disorder.Excessively too dry skin.

I bought a dead sea mud and their sulphuric soap which cost me a bomb!!

But I believe in the product which I can see the effect after the first application!

Anyway the dead sea is from Israel.

I shall update if there's major changes.

I want to thank Sharon and Wen Jing for helping me alot!

I owe them big time!!!

I'm debt FREE!

my mode-anxious

where

2009-06-17T19:12:00.005+08:00

Let me decide.It's hard to say but harder to do.
I know I have said it gazillion time.Too glued maybe.
But let me finish what I need to pay first.
Seeing myself there.Where am I later?

I'm trying my best to keep my head up.I need that as to live for everyday.
Honestly,I'm not fully living life and I know heavy time was wasted.And I don't want facing severe down mode.So I'm trying to see lights.

I'm thankful I'm almost complete
I'm thankful I'm sheltered
I'm thankful I'm surrounded by good people

But life too cruel to be thankful always.
This is fucking real world.Wake up Move on!

****People we are facing global warming.Save the earth so as to save the world!!! I mean it.

my mode-farking bored

ahh...

2009-06-14T17:33:00.007+08:00

I can breathe now.
I'm sorry baby.Maybe I'm too sensitive.

And what happened the other day was.
I'm resting not fully covered watching TV as the surrounding was terribly hot.And my head #$%^&*()@#^.A knock on the door from my sis as I thought she wanted to already leave.
Suddenly boom!The girls dashed in.Luckily I hang onto something!I wanted to scream and ask them to leave..I was in a state of shocked!They were too fast.I had jumbled feelings of being

(1)angry cause they anyhow dashed in,
(2)sad cause of bubbly,
(3)funny cause i'm not covered.

I wanted to laugh but must action2 sad.Whahahahaahahah!
Anyway thanks for the VERY pleasant suprise.I appreciate.

This is how I irritate him when i'm bored
"U,I draw you a tattoo.Cantik punnyer!"
"Taa-Ddaaaahhhh...." My master piece!!!

"I knew it you draw that!"Hahahahaha.

I thought that he gonna be pissed and make his pay back.
But No!
Well just see what he did with my sleek camera.

Doreen does this look familiar?hahaha

Love him again and again and again!

My mode-bored

hide

2009-06-12T18:17:00.003+08:00

What am I suppose to feel right now?

I've not listen and I will not.

It's been still all along.Too still that we forgot.

It's always been "I don't know." "I don't know." "I don't know!"

If really the case.It's not NOW,not TODAY,not at this MOMENT.

It should happen way back.Too much on the beautifully created.

It's not happening.Not now.

You shouldn't have walked away to hide.And blame another.

Atleast a simple telling would help somehow.

But you chose!

Expecting me to inhale.You think I would believe.

Fuck you.

I take back the previous and rather enjoying then being taken away from.

Why now damn it!

Why now!

my mode-devastated

disturb

2009-06-09T14:30:00.004+08:00

I have difficulties in sleeping now a days.As in I really want to but when the body is too aching it's so uncomfortable to sleep.When the sun rise the next day i'm so lerthagic to go through the mundane of my work again be it I had enough rest or not.I felt like crying to bed every time...What am i suppose to do?

PS: I LOVE AH HUAT SO MUCH.
So much that I could even give up my green tea frapp for him if he ever he ask me
to.Haha!!

my mode-restless.

yeah!

2009-06-07T01:31:00.002+08:00

By the time i click on the publish post tab it will before 2am.I need to sleep.

Oh my fucking *tuuuuuuuutttt......

Finally they did something!

I'm not suppose to know but glad i was being told.I'm sure majority of them will be clapping to hear this.So not to worry people.She'll be fucking off!

To her closest working partner hopefully to hear your resignation letter approve!cause you can follow that woman and fucking go also!

That fucking brainless,meanest aunty who lives the other end splashed water to these innocent little brothers.They were found wet also early afternoon by mom 'on the ledge' of the corridor who then put them down for safety.They were then handed to me and sis just now shivering and hungry.We then gave them what they need before releasing.Being a owner of a pet or even a HUMAN BEING I was angry with her act.

Your door will be splash painted beautifully noticeably purple(my fav colour by the way) if ever got to do with my closest members even my pearly Pearl!You did with mom once!HEARTLESS BITCH!

my mode-excited

Around and round

2009-06-02T23:44:00.007+08:00

I found my new bedtime song.

I miss this friend who's name was listed in my contact list for long and despite having her signing in and out often were ignored.I didn't initiate a conversation for donkeys years with her even though she's near.She tried too initially but it's just me.To come to think of it i felt bad.I felt terribly bad till i missed her being as a very GOOD friend.

This call made from her a year back at 12am.

she: Hey Nydiah,Happy Birthday!

me: Thank you(with a smile on)

she: Where are you?

me: I'm outside,a friend house.

she: I'm actually under your block for a suprise.It's okay then i'll just pass your present to your sis.Hope you like it!

Fyi,before that very day we have not been contacting it's so thoughtful of her making a sudden visit for me which I think she appreciates me as a friend more than i did.

I'm missed my friends which we grew up together within that precious 5years.I've learnt.

To her,

Even though we are having our separate lives now,

you are a friend to me still.It's those undying

supports marked you and them in my life.

I miss.TQ

*If it's good for you.It's bad for me.I'm afraid.

my mode-happy

Fat

2009-05-31T11:13:00.003+08:00

I'm being so selfish till I've a mission now.A mission that so satisfying I think my bitchy pie will thank me for.Haha.A mission is to make my baby Pearly Pearl into a one huge fat cat.Like this

She'll be so big that she'll sleep 19hours per day.Snores while sleeping.Very large that we have to loosen her cat's collar that is being hidden by her neck and fur.So lazy that she'll be tired of playing and also walking up to her food bowl.So heavy that she'll be just sitting down on her big tummy leaning on something and not running around pouncing us!Hahaha!
I keep pestering Syaqilah to give her food every now and then.I make sure it's NOT low fat.
She would be so adorable and cuddly to squeeze and be love when she's fat.At least I've accompany to show off our sexy meat.WTF.Hahahahahahaha!

Can't wait for the results.Shall save up extra on her food.Hehe.

I'm I not wrong?
It's proven that your people are fuck tup.Not just one.We found out most.And yes I've
issues.If you think you guys are so good in your spining of words.Being in dramas.Test us.We'll do better.Cause you are not the big fuck here.
If ever I have a demolision powers,you have the very main priorty to fucking go.
Ever I run the goverment I ensure I'll ban you all from entering here.
You all are better off as MAIDS.
**People don't waste your time knocking to these people hard rock stoned heads cause their brains are good as DEAD.They don't know whose ground they step on now.

How I wish they are all entirely gone by tomorrow.Fucking disappear in thin air and never return!

my mode-irritated

when is mine?

2009-05-28T12:07:00.003+08:00

R Kelly-World's Greatest.

I am a mountain
I am a tall tree
Oh, I am a swift wind
Sweepin' the country
I am a river
Down in the valley
Oh, I am a vision
And I can see clearly
If anybody asks you who I am
Just stand up tall look 'em in the face and say

[Chorus]
I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey, I made it
I'm the worlds greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my backs against the ropes
I can feel it mmm
I'm the worlds greatest!

I just wish i could sing that with pride someday.
It's just inspiring when you see someone found the light.
Which you are dissapointed you haven found yours.
If you say I'm dreaming then please wake me up.
Cause i know there's always end of every tunnel.
I need something!!

Fuck I'm in the real.

Scan,Tin Tin thanks for organising the beach outing the other time for my belated B'Day.
I had fun!As in WE had fun!

my mode-pissed

I don't want to grow up!

2009-05-23T21:45:00.007+08:00

People I know I sucks at your birthdays.SORRY.My bad.
But still i really thought nothing happen on my day despite trying hard laying low.But all these thoughtful people kept my day busy.I thank you so much for the fun I had and till that i must blame them for reminding me that i have grew up,which i really don't want to!THANK YOU!Haha.
I met this pompan gila at noon for a good lunch.I know her well that she's always up to something and i ALWAYS kept bugging her the whole afternoon not to plan anything stupid for me.She didn't!My bugging works!We kept laughing untill i parted from her which i thank god that i still have my jaw intact.

Me and Yen qi then had our sweetest moment,my birthday cake are being decorated ourself.We?Pastry chief?RUIN cakes!!confirm!!
HEY!not bad okay our cake.

See for yourself!

Which one is Yen qi?

We then had desert.See bubbly face.He's in a state of shocked.What happened?

Exhausted.Me and bubbly make our way home.I called my sis to check on them.Stupid them stuck outside the house while playing with Bam Bam.Hahaha.

"Don't come back home before 7pm."
I was like WTF when i saw the message i'm tired i need my sofa and bed!They're doing something at home.I knew it!But their plan screwed up because of the main door locked them outside.Hahahaha!

I help them decorate the house.We had many balloons,birthday banners,party hats,party mask,popper.WoW!I'm 6 again!Yeah!I don't want to grow up and think about life,money,respondsibilities,relationship and myself!I want to stay 6!
whatever it is i thank my sweetest sisters in the world for the fun.My wishes came true as they were the clowns for my party.

we overdrank.So drunken that the party hats were still on our heads.NO!!IT'S A HALAL PARTY OKAY!

Trying hard to find a soulmate Shasha

Thank you those who came.For a tiny mini party i enjoyed them BIG time.
Thank you NYDIAH SYAQILAH AND NYDIAH SUHAIDAH AND MUMMY!

my mode-sleepy

Happy hours!

2009-05-17T17:27:00.006+08:00

This all was a last minute plan to go parrrr...ty!!!!!!!.And it's been donkey years I've not step into one.Missed those crazy dizzy and terrible hangovers.
We invited(What shall i call her?)Auntie Doreen 2.Hahahaha.She's worst then auntie Doreen 1 at JP.As in we can laugh one whole fucking hour just outside the office door,sitting on the floor.The moment you meet her till the last word you have with her,90% of the time you'll be laughing.Believe me.
We party our night off and the moment Zirca was mentioned I knew it,it's gonna be House/Techno.I feel like shooting the DJ spining and get another one up but whatever it is me and scan as always.Busy dancing.The rest just chilling.I've got to find out that bubbly meter running up and down also.Haha.No la.He didn't notice.Cause it's hard to differentiate now a days as it was a Les party.And it's dark goodness sake!
Hell of fun.Can't wait for the staff party!

On the other calmer note.Me and JP fishy people had picnic at Marina Barrage.I appreciate those who went early to food shopping and making.Which I didn't.Sorry.Cannot wake up.Hehe.Especially Jenny which me and Hui ping caught her sleeping in the car.Kesian.
We had good sandwhiches,drinks and gathering as to wait for the downpour cleared.I really miss them loads as we were making our separate ways for home and life.I really wish you all the very best and a very damn good luck for the upcoming!You'll be missed!!
We posed for tons of pictures.Memories are to be kept!

I want more pictures!

my mode-caring